Course correction?

It started with not having anything blog-worthy. And then I was lazy. But soon, my blogging-self was having something of an existential crisis - why am I blogging? Is it merely because it's the thing to do these days? If that, will I stop once the novelty factor (or whatever) wears off ...the way it did with posting facebook status messages? etc. etc.
Honestly, I still do not know what I am hoping to achieve by blogging. In fact, it's more like I do not even know if I am hoping to achieve anything.
Reading through my past few posts though, it seems that I have been treating this blogging thing as some kind of popularity contest - trying so, SO hard to be funny, indulging in exaggeration and hyperbole, sacrificing the thought for the punchline... ugh! And here I was thinking that I had grown up and left behind the insecurities of my school and college days!
But let me not draw you into the murky waters that I should be wading into only with my shrink. To cut a long story short then, here are the things we know about 15 post-old me:
- Tends to ramble
- Tries desperately to fit in by trying desperately to be funny.
I have no idea if I will stop doing any of the above right away. For all you know, I might just default to inane chatter of assorted irrelevance in my next post. But in the fact that even these 15 random posts may have held a mirror to my soul and helped me look beyond the fluff of a confident smile and an assured walk, I have a feeling that blogging may have achieved something already. What do you think?

There is them, and then there is me

Now that I stay at home full-time and have become a total blog-junkie, I often wonder about people who manage to blog everyday. Every Single Day! And some of them have been at it for years now. How do they manage to do it? And does it not take away from the joy of blogging, making it a chore that needs to be taken care of everyday? Or is it that I have gotten it all wrong and these folks blog everyday because they enjoy it so much? In which case, blogging leads to something akin to an 'exercise high', a concept which I anyway have trouble wrapping my mind around.
I have even greater trouble understanding how daily-bloggers manage to be that and still lead normal lives. My point is that if you know in advance that you are going to blog about something (in the case of a daily-blogger, it has to be something from their day), then it'd be really hard to not let your reaction to / experience of that particular thing get coloured by this fact. Of course, it's possible that I again have it all wrong and the act of blogging might actually make people less passive - will I observe a sunset more keenly if I know that I have to describe how beautiful it was on my blog? Although, this still remains an example of when an experience might get altered because of the subject's blogging self.
And then of course, there are some people who will sometimes blog about anything, just in order to get it done for that day. I wonder if that is what I am doing right now?

When your head becomes the neck (of the bottle)

Yes, I did it! I further legitimized my claim to being a full-fledged member of the bloggers' club by going and getting myself a "blogger's block".
I started writing the previous post, the one on upbringing, on Thursday, March 26 at 5:13 PM (which is what the time-stamp on the post says). I didn't get around to posting it till about 15 minutes ago - which makes it just after 4 PM on Friday, March 27. The intervening 24 hours were a really hard struggle to put 2 (or for that matter, even 1!) coherent sentences together. It was like I had been asked to write in Spanish! My only solace during this time was that my google search on "bloggers block" yielded 142,000 results - clearly, I am not alone in this state of "all engines are firing, but nothing is moving".
Hopefully, the weekend will help me unclutter my mind. A few glasses of wine always do the trick :)

Btw, what do you do when you want to blog but the mind goes blah?

We'll see where this goes...

Can't believe I am finally doing it - my first post!
I created this blog, or rather, this account on blogger more than a year ago. Blame it partly on laziness and partly on, well, feelings of insufficiency after reading other people's blogs (who knew that the line dividing a blog and an agony aunt letter was a fine one!) that I never got down to actually posting something here.
So, here I am... finally trying to make room on the back burner for other stuff. We will see for how long this new-found motivation sticks.